realization:
i think part of why i hate my life is because i'm living MY life and not someone else's, so i think i'm going to start being like certain [ahem] people and pretending to be things i'm not in an effort to live the way other people do. that'll certainly make me happier, right? i mean, it seems to be working so well for OTHER people.
now, because it was requested [even though i've made it clear that i have no life and thus, this is a little on the pointless side..]
¡¡updates updates updates!!
·surprise surprise, MY LIFE STILL SUCKS.
·i think i'm going to new orleans for maaahdi gras tomorrow..? ronnie says if i can go, he's going to go. if that pans out, i'll just ride down with him and my brother will [no doubt] tag along. i know that keri's going, so i'll rendezvous with her once fagbert and i get into the big sleazy. she wants me to go back to austin with her for a little while, which would be divine, but i don't think papa ducre will be hearing that.
[note to self: stupid bitch forgot that 'divine' is on the list of banned words, no matter HOW it's spelled, be it correctly or cuntily, like oh, you know.. skank's names or whatever.]
·also, it's about that time: i'm going to be a big girl and go to pay my non-arrest bond so that they won't arrest me when i go to court to clear my good name. it's no secret that i used to drive a leeetle too fast, but your honor, i now know the error of my ways and have learned from my mistakes. scout's honor.
yeah yeah yeah. so that's how it goes.
·now, a certain beloved [hack] friend of mine, a fellow libra and new yorker-at-heart is back in nawlins [or so i'm told by my gossiphags] to clean herself up and FINALLY take care of her raging cocaine addiction and i have to say, i am so proud. way to jump ON the wagon [rather than off, for once] and get the help that she so desperately needs. i mean, sure, she looked great when she lost that first twenty pounds, but after the second twenty pounds, it just got sick. we all tried to do everything we could, but when she's got the money, the pushaman, and the determination to stay coked out, what can we do? maybe now she'll wake up and realize that the boy she thinks of as her "puppy" [yes, it's in quotes because it's a QUOTE. direct quote, thanksha.] is actually a great person who's dedicated to her and is actually the last person who cares enough to stick with her no matter how terribly she treats him. i know we all tried our best and stuck with her through some pretty tough times, but he really redefined the word "friend" for her. but i'm glad, because whether she realizes it or not, she needs him. i'd hate to see what her life would be like if he weren't part of it, cos honey, money can only buy you so much, and the people that it buys tend to only do as much as they have to to get that all-mighty dollar or line, which ever she's offering at the moment. [hey-oh] well, good for her. it's about damn time.
hooray hooray for libra ladies!
·a good friend who, despite how awesome of a guy he is and the fact that i know he cares, tends to be a smidge dismissive when it comes to my problems [but i don't hold it against him] told me that rather than sleeping for 18+ hours a day [which i haven't been able to do anymore these past few days- i guess all that damn sleep caught up with me] i should go to B&N and get a teach-yourself-a-foreign-language set and *drumroll* teach myself an awesome foreign language. now, i appreciate the quite logical and very practical advice, but i am far too self-pitying right now to do something productive. my general discontent with life causes me to prefer absolute laziness, sloth, and nonproductivity. thanks, though. it was a good suggestion. for realz.
now, last but not least:
·the end of february begins the trials and tribulations era of 2008. that's what i've decided i'm going to refer to it as from here on out because it just seems.. fitting. but yes, visitation and all that wonderful jazz should happen before the 26th because after that point, it'll be a few months before i'll be commissionable. so yeah, jump on that if you're going to. [the noted exception, of course, being my s.o. whose presence i desire at all times.]
if you don't have these songs already,
do yourself a favor and get them
[by whatever means necessary, as i'm so fond of saying]:
1. 'I Am Somebody'- DJ Mehdi feat. Chromeo
2. 'Don't Cry Out' (Teenagers remix)- Shiny Toy Guns
3. 'Chick Habit'- April March
4. 'Shake It To The Ground'- Rye Rye
5. 'Gold and a Pager'- The Cool Kids
6. 'Control'- Kid Sister
7. 'Flashing Lights'- Kanye West feat. Dwele
8. 'District Sleeps Alone Tonight' (Hollertronix remix)- Postal Service
9. 'Loose Wires/Blind Radio'- Kenna
10. 'Let's Make Love and Listen To Death From Above' (Spank Rock remix)- CSS
love.
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